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I feel like I've lost my ability to commit to something small, as in any small project. I have all these massive projects in the wings that are just overwhelming to look at and, while not a time-sink, are going to take a lot of time. I want to make a small game, write a small story, code a small project, or do anything small, and I'm absolutely failing at it. I said for 2024, I wasn't going to pick up any new projects, and for the most part, I have been successful, but in the same vein, the lingering projects from previous years are all massive. Now, mind you, I have made some strides to get rid of a lot of the project scope creep that snuck into those projects - like making High Metropoly always be designed for solo play and then also rolling a lot of the overlapping design choices for the various Neo Cities Chronicle games into one another rather than having them separate, more on that in a future update.

But those are all big projects. It's not magus opus "Look Ma We Made It," my VN VR Rhythm game project, but it's not something I can sit down and knock out in a month's projects either. And I high-key hate it. I thought about going back to my B6 micro games format to just knock something out of one of those games, but when I look at what I already made in that series, I just think I should redo most, if not all, of those games to give them more structure and a better foundation because as a game designer, I've grown and while I don't cringe at my previous works I definitely think 2024 me can do a much better job at them. This again leads back to the, I want to start and finish a small project, but I have no small project ideas. Rather, all the ideas I have seem like big convoluted projects, and I don't have it in me to trim them down to something under 10,000 words. But in spite of this, I want to spend July figuring that out, going through all my open projects - of which I have many - and creating a project plan for each and every one of them. Partly to do some serious project management skill speed running because if I have learned anything from this extended snit of unemployment is that I don't actually have any crossover skills to not film/post-production related jobs, and that also sucks. But also because I say I'm someone who likes project management, but I have nothing to back that statement up. I want to rectify that, and what better way to do that than with my own wildly out-of-hand projects?

All of this is a long way to say I'm going to be going over all the projects that I have in Obsidian and coming up with the bare minimum project plan outline for them so I can figure out exactly what projects I have that can be pruned into small projects and then completed within a small 30/31 day time span. In retrospect, I realized a lot of my big plans aren't massive but relatively small to medium plans that got taken over by scope creep. I need to get them back under control before I can realistically do anything. I'm trapped in a hellscape of my own doing in the form of scope creep leading to indecisiveness, and I want out of this place for the back half of 2024, please, and thank you.

So please look forward to that in July, as well as some other things that I can't talk about just yet because I need to ruminate on them some more. While I am normally in the "I have to talk about it to make it real" camp, there are things that are just too fragile right now to handle, and I don't want them to break, so I'm just going to keep them to myself for right now.

I've decided to reopen my commissions via Ko-fi. I am currently offering short story writing and video editing. There will be more services added at a later date, I need to get the wording down for what I am and am not offering.

Some of these additional services will be video producing for live and prerecorded actual plays, as well as live and pre-recorded virtual panels. Both are things that I've done before I did a bunch of panels for Gen Con Online. Obviously, I've done actual plays as a producer, gamemaster, and player.

I will also be offering writing services to create scripts for voiceover and voice actors, as well as writing comic book scripts based on people's own outlines and stuff that they've written.

I plan on adding Ren'py programming; I want to do a refresher on Ren'py 8. And also I want to make an example project of everything that I know that I can do well to show off to people as strictly a portfolio piece. On top of that, I'm also planning on adding writing for Visual Novels to the services that are offered. I'm going to use this sample project as an example of both my writing and coding skills.

I will also be setting up on VGEN in the future, but currently, I'm only on Ko-fi.

The reason I'm switching to doing more freelance and reopening my commissions is my day job has been a little bit messy. My day job is film and TV for those who don't know is in Film & TV in Post Production. With the Writers and Actor strike, there was such an upheaval things haven't fully gotten back in the swing of things as they had been before. And the union I am part of is currently negotiating contracts. So I'm just taking a step back from what I've been doing for so long to make a full commitment to being an independent creator.

Plus I miss doing my own sort of thing. I miss working on creative projects that are my own choosing, not because I need to pay my bills, not because I don't still need to pay my bills. I do, which is why I'm taking commissions and not just working on my own stuff. But I don't pick jobs based on not whether I liked the show or not. Basically, whether I liked the show or not is completely irrelevant to me taking a job where, in this case, by doing freelance work, I can be more discerning in my case and the things that I pick.

So long story short, check out more information on my ko-fi

☕:Commissions info on Ko-Fi

January - March 2024

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